This week wasnt really a good week for mi... Many things made mi feel lost and unhappy... First of all, I realise that SIM start sch on 3rd July if I am accepted (which the service staff told mi most probably I will get in)... I ORD on 21 July Start clearing leave only on the 4 July... But nvm coz I am given 1 pathetic off so I can go study... The problem is I cant go Taiwan anymore!!!!!! I already booked my tickets from 11 to 19 July and now I ahve to find someone else to replace mi which I cant find or to forgo my 260 bucks... Sianz... Another thing is that I can clear any more leave or off from now on unless I am given any... That means I will not be able to go for my advance theory test on the 9 of June... And all this happen on Monday, the first day of the week...
The following few days did not went well for mi either... Went for an outfield for 2 days one night, feeding mosqitoes throughout and I mean mosqitoes bites on my whole body... More than 20 to 30 bites... F**k the mosqitoes... I am not going for another outfield again!!! My face condition have finally become better but after just 2 days 1 night outfield, pimples start popping out again... Sianz...
Finally managed to get pass to Friday, unfortunately I have to go for ATP (shooting test) on Sat and will only book out on Sat night or Sun morning... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! Pissing me off... I wanna ORD now!!!! Really looking forward to the day I can go back to civilian life, slping at home everynight... But today when I came home, I dun feel happy at all... I felt so lost and disappointed... I felt more relax at my bunk... When I came back, my mum told mi abt my younger bro exams results... He only manage to pass 1 subject and fail the rest with scores of only 10 to 20 plus... I really dunno wat to do with him and yet my mum wan mi to talk to him... No choice so I went to talk to him really hope that he will listen and do something himself...
Next my dad came to my room... First thing he tell mi is, "This Sunday is my bday, so what u wanna get for mi?" Kaoz... Super turn off man... We have been telling my younger bro not to ask for present or money from others yet my dad is doing it himself... Not setting an example at all... Really dun understand why the f**k he is my dad... I actually learn from him alot but not from the good things he did, he nv do any good things for mi to learn anyway, but from all the bad things he did... I learnt not to do what he did... Initially I wanna buy a watch for my dad but now he turned mi off so I am hesitating...
Helped mi plz... Somebody plz give mi advice, help mi with my life... I am getting real tired... Jus hope that when I start studying, there will be a change for better future for mi...
Got to book in later... Tired and de moralized... | 